i don't know if i made the right decision moving to London
i felt terrible at the airport and i never wanted to come here actually.
now that I'm here at home , it feels like i have to do the things i was doing before ,but somehow my mind stayed in Istanbul and it is not coming back to me.
i picked the classes yesterday , i had the timetable today , and I'm going to my very first lecture tomorrow but why don't i feel excited or nervous or anxious. i supposed to feel so but instead i feel numb as if i was doing all those stuff maybe for 4 years like ordinarily.
i signed another contract for 12 months today for my broadband and with the telephone contract it makes it 2 contracts that i supposed to pay more than 1 year actually my phone contract is for 2 years. that's why i know that I'm staying in here , London, otherwise i go to jail i guess or i cant come back to London again because they might arrest me at the airport due to my unpaid debts and obviously its not an option. or maybe i win the lottery and i pay all those contracts at once so i don't have to wait for 2 years but i don't see its gonna happen too for some reason (!)
i canceled my gym membership because i supposed to start yoga but unsurprisingly i haven't gone there yet either. i think i need some one make me things by force.
i felt terrible at the airport and i never wanted to come here actually.
now that I'm here at home , it feels like i have to do the things i was doing before ,but somehow my mind stayed in Istanbul and it is not coming back to me.
i picked the classes yesterday , i had the timetable today , and I'm going to my very first lecture tomorrow but why don't i feel excited or nervous or anxious. i supposed to feel so but instead i feel numb as if i was doing all those stuff maybe for 4 years like ordinarily.
i signed another contract for 12 months today for my broadband and with the telephone contract it makes it 2 contracts that i supposed to pay more than 1 year actually my phone contract is for 2 years. that's why i know that I'm staying in here , London, otherwise i go to jail i guess or i cant come back to London again because they might arrest me at the airport due to my unpaid debts and obviously its not an option. or maybe i win the lottery and i pay all those contracts at once so i don't have to wait for 2 years but i don't see its gonna happen too for some reason (!)
i canceled my gym membership because i supposed to start yoga but unsurprisingly i haven't gone there yet either. i think i need some one make me things by force.
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